Am I always starting over?

Well, I am starting over AGAIN.
I had a melt down and started eating everything in site. That, plus candy corn being around, turned me into a monster. So i gained four pounds back and am back to counting calories.

One of the issues I have is that I have a desk job. I want to eat while I sit. We have free candy and free soda so temptation is every where.

My audition for Frog and Toad is next Thursday so I don't think I'll be reaching my goal of ten pounds haha


But I do have other show motivations coming up. A theater I once starred at in Once On This Island
is doing two shows that need black leads

Sister Act the Musical


Aida





Sister Act is in the spring, so I don't know if I can lose a lot of weight before auditions. Aida is in the summer. What I am struggling with is that these two theaters don't pay and have short runs. If you put in that much energy I would like it to be a long run. and maybe get paid like I'm used to.

But the other theater I do work at, Hale West Valley, is doing Aida next Fall and To Kill a Mockingbird in the spring. I don't usually do straight plays, but I think the play calls for one black female and I'd get a pay check. I know that no matter how much weight I lose by Aida that I won't star in that, but hopefully I'd get a supporting lead, Nehebka.

SO, life is a mess. I am trying to get it together and get my goals in order. It is just hard for me to work out or eat right when I work 40 hours and go to school too. But We will see how this thing goes.

Hard Path

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It is a hard path to go down, losing weight. I have a lot of famous people who have done it but they have basically been paid. Their are a couple people in my life who have lost significant amounts of weight and they say it is all about will power and determination.

I hope I have determination. It is just so hard when you are used to eating a certain way and then you change it to another. I switched up my plan, because the auditions for Frog and Toad are November 3rd and I want to lose at least ten pounds by then. So I am doing the No White Diet, which is basically no sugar or flour, and on top of that I am counting calories.

I only just started on Wednesday, but I have been losing little amounts consistently, so I am hopeful. It better work because I switched around the way I eat ENTIRELY! Below are examples of what I used to eat and what I eat now. This is a lifestyle change I am trying to do, so I hope good comes out of it.

BEFORE:
Breakfast: Usually a protein drink because I need to run out the door by 5:30 for work.

Lunch: Cheesy gordita crunch, hard shell taco, and a steak quesadilla

Dinner: two hot dogs, chips and a couple cups of ice cream.

Snack: Candy, candy, and probably chips

NOW:
 Breakfast: Protein drink of some kind.

Lunch: Pork or chicken with squash or asparagus

Dinner: An all fruit smoothie from Jamba or some more lean meat choices with veggies. 

Snack: Bananas, clementines and almonds.