Well, it as happened. I have ballooned to an unbelievable size and it is time to take action. My problem is that I can lose small amounts just fine; when you're bigger the weight kinda just comes off at first. But then I think, well I can have one cookie. then one cookie turns into two things at Taco Bell, then eating out every meal, then eating half a pizza and,,,,well here we are. I don't want to post pictire yet. I want to lose a bit of weight and then do before and after shots. At least twenty pounds. That may seem like a lot to lose, but it isn't when you hear my weight.....
Growing up I was a bean pole. Middle school came and I was bigger than the other girls, but I wasn't fat. Then in High School I quit cheerleading and read more books and watched more TV. The scale slowly began to creep up. I lost a bunch of weight for a role I played about nine years ago...got down to 160, which was amazing for me. I looked great, felt great, and everything was going my way. But as my life fell apart, my body wasn't far behind. I got into debt, I quit college, I started making some bad chocices and now I am where I am now.
But it is time for a change. I am taking a short break from acting, that may turn into a permenant thing, and I am back in school and working towards somethings again. For the first time in years I can see a future for myself. But in that future I need to be healthy. Cant teach a classroom of kids if I don't have the energy to stand all day. I can't act on stage if I'm out of breath just from walking. Can't sit down and write a book if I'm going to continue the way I am, I'll get even bigger.
SO, I am FOCUSED.. And this is a way to hold myself accountable.
Current Weight: 275 pounds
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