I've been watching my calories and have lost four pounds. I only just started going to the gym yesterday because I am so lazy. I work and go to school, so I feel like I earn my laziness. But I know that if I keep doing that I'm and gonna gain even more weight. Sitting for 8-9 hours at work....sitting for 4-5 hours at school....I'll get even bigger. That cannot happen.
At my skinniest in my adult life I was 170. It was when I was staring in Once On This Island. I'd already been losing weight even though I was going to school full time and working at Taco Bell part time. I was busy, but I had more energy then. It was the role that made me more dedicated to losing weight. Two guys had to lift me onto their shoulders and I was afraid I was going to hurt them. At the time I also was dancing in the show and working out at five in the morning, so I was doing well. We took family photos that year and man I look good.
Now I use my schedule as an excuse, but I can't anymore. Sure, I work at 6 am and am always late for work so I cant work out in the morning. Tow days a week I go from work to school until 7 so I don't want to work out on those days cause I go to bed at 9. So, Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays are my designated work out days, and I will throw in Fridays and Sundays if I feel like it and have time. Trouble is I already put of doing my homework so many working out will make me fall behind....we will see.
My motivation? Right I just don't want my fat stomach to be in my jeans. You know how it grows out first and then down? Mine has been down for almost a year. I hate that I can see the bulge from my stomach in my jeans. Also, there is a show I want to do. A Year With Frog and Toad. I was in the show 8 years ago and we have just been waiting for the theater to do it again. It is finally slotted for January and we are hoping to get most of the original cast together again. But I was smaller then....I think it might have been the same year of Once On This Island, so I was in shape. If they don't mind casting a fatter girl I can still pull it off.
BUT it is a demanding shows, I played multiple roles, so I need to be able to do it. I need to run around the stage, change into a new costume, and get back out there and sing. SO I am trying. If I lose two pounds a week I can lose 32 pounds by Christmas. Not a big dent in my weight, I need to lose 110 pounds at least to be back to where I want to be, but it is a start. I just need to put in the work.
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